I'd like to get out of here. Really away. Maybe for a couple of weeks. Maybe for a couple of years. I have that feeling that it's time to go, and I can't quite seem to get up the inertia to break free permanently. I am going to have to take my freedoms where I can, then.
It's such a paradox. I still love what I do, but some of the things and people that were bright spots, great joys to me, have become tarnished now, and I just want to close the door on them, not have to deal with it anymore. There is no resolution of the situation possible, so leaving it behind is a solution I can choose until I can toughen myself up to a point where I just don't care.
And with that comes so many other things I want to strip away. It's like drops of ink on soft paper, and I find myself wanting to cut away every place the stain has spread. Although I frequently say this and then turn around and blog incessantly, it is likely you will see less here in the near future. I just don't feel that I have that much to say, and the electronic world is one of those things I feel the need to pare back right now.
I'm sure this is just a cycle brought about by the stress of a long year ending and the drama/bullshit of last week most especially, but I am going to run with it. If it's what I feel I need right now, then so be it. I'll see you around whenever I feel like there's something useful to say again.
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