- I started teaching my Mythology class today officially. It is going to be great fun. I love it, and I think the students will have a good time, too.
- I should be asleep, especially since I haven't gotten much sleep this week, but....
- I feel compelled to write here because...
- I am torn between two emotions. On the one hand, things are going pretty well. I have things to look forward to, things that make me happy. My work life has stabilized. I should be happy, but....
- There are pockets tucked into hidden corners, the contents of which make me sad and frustrated, mostly I think because...
- I want something I can't have. Ever. Shouldn't have. Am not capable of having even in the smallest measure. Which brings me to my biggest question...
- How do I turn off that wanting? How do I set it aside and pretend like it's not there? Will the pretending make it real sooner or later? If I just close my eyes, plug my ears, ignore it, will it fade away from lack of attention? Life would be so much kinder if I were just dead inside, mindless and automated. This constant state of feeling every little bump in the road is too much. I need better shock absorbers for my soul. And so, I guess...
- I will just go to bed now. Sleep and hope not to dream. Try to focus on the positive. Try to be a support instead of needing to be supported. Live up to the adage about giving and receiving. Close my eyes another day and hope I don't bump into too many things that will bruise me in the process.
"We're all fools whether we dance or not, so we might as well dance." -- Japanese proverb
Thursday, October 11, 2012
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