Headache. Day off. Headache.
This is my life right now. I don't know why. Maybe it's the weather. Maybe it's the stress. Maybe it's just crap to be me sometimes.
I get so tired of hurting. On the Topamax, off it, it doesn't seem to matter. Why can't I just be a normal person? The kind who doesn't feel like her head is going to explode every time there's a flashing light on a cop car or a thunderstorm blowing in.
Last night, it hit me as I was preparing to play for the revival service. All the lights were too bright. I toughed it out, though. I finished the congregational hymns and then I stumbled out and drove myself home. The whole way, I drove about 35 mph, saying, "I can do this. I can do this. I can do this...." I hope it would have made Mrs. Sarah, my music teacher, proud.
Some of my most immediate stress ended today. I still have a couple of more things to resolve, but maybe if I can get all this stuff cleared up, my head won't continue to impede my living.
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